扭曲，丑陋

我的心

开始扭曲了

我的心

开始丑化了

不要招惹我

我控制不了我自己

因为，

我已开始失去理智了

我再也用不了理智来控制我自己了

我不想

把一切

搞的，不得安宁

我，不好惹

我，没你们想象的得好

我的心计

你不是没见识过

不要让我

再次

做出

彼此都会后悔的事

我也有我的极限

不要忘了我的曾经

如要放手

请放的彻底

如要抓紧

请不要轻易放手

加油好吗？

如果心里还有我

请抓紧我，不要放手

如果你还不定

请远离我

等你确定了

清楚了

才来作决定

我承受不住

一次又一次

心痛

在你眼里

我可以微笑

因为

我不要你因为我的伤痛

而影响你的决定

不要再伤害任何人了

我一个就够了

真的，不要招惹其她的了

你要学会，坚强

你要有定力

不要逃避了

好吗

我，帮不了你了

我有点累了

risk

the feeling of confuse came back to me

i just don't really know how the next step will be

i only know how to guide you to your next step

but i had forgotten how to plan my next step

what should i do now ?

i'm trembling and afraid at the moment i woke up this morning

and asking myself

was yesterday a dream ?

again - i see a dim hope

and again

i see fear came along

and again

i see the gambling table and the dealer is waiting my bet

bet my trust my heart

after all i'm just a little stupid gal

fragile - my heart calling

能够看见你的真心

让我

很感动

可惜

有点晚了

对吧

已经不如从前了

one and a half hour more

happy birthday to you ~~~

once again...i missed out the birthday celebration of yours

good thing you did not missed out mine ~~~~

really one and only time...hmmm

maid help or mess ???

the new maid is giving me trouble more than giving me help

hmmmppp cannot angry her cannot scold her

cause she is still NEW

she messed up my wardrobe until i can't find my clothes and worst to worst

she wash my clothes everyday which i don't wish to wash

it will spoilttttttttttttttttttt it keep on wash like dat....

pity my jeans

pity my shirts

ahhhhhhhh~~~~

going to jb soon

but the bad news is

i can't find driver to send me to astro company

i think i can bang wall d

people will ask

your house so many cars

no one can fetch u there meh ?

ya lo, my house so many cars

but everyone is busy

pathetic right ?

well, i get used to it

何去何从

slowly

i have move my life base back to klang, back to pj

i hang out with frens

i stay at home little more often

i think

i will miss cheras

been long did not travel there

i've been travel there up and down

for more than one and a half year plus

a place, a road which i always go

to find my love

and now

love gone

there is no point for me to go back there

it only recall all the memory

a memory that will give sourish to my heart

maybe one day, i'll pass by there again

when i'm ready

cause i really love there

not because of the environment

is because you are there

i can sense you

i can feel your existence

:(

sickness making me thinking of him even more...

miss his tenderness

miss his caring

miss his wanna angry but cannot angry face (cause he need to cancel his appointment with client just to take care me XD)

miss his cuteness (when i'm resting and sleeping in room...he will sneak in and out and look after me see whether i'm well a not)

hehehe...sweetness

hmm...now hafta drink fu cha (苦茶)

yucksssssss

ME !

have a crazy nite yesterday

and i realized something....

me is still me :)

i loved to play

i loved to crazy

i loved party

and one more thing....

hmmm....i don't felt guilt and i don't think of him

when i'm with another guy...

this is a good sign...

at least i prove it now....

i loved how i am now ~~~~

:)

不知怎的

我又梦见了你

但是，结局是好的

可是，我一点也没开心的感觉

也没一点期待的感觉

hilarious

sarcastic

or really just a simple care ?

well...

can't you just be little honest and straight forward to me ?

or you just wanna pretend to be a good person as you always want to present to others ?

or my message is not clear to you at the last call ???

if your concern is just to make yourself feel better...

then how bout me ???

have you ever know....

your simple weird simple message can actually still affect my entire mood ???

do you know i still care...?

i really wonder...

what are you thinking right now....

can you just be honest to your heart and tell me the truth ???

i'm tired of guessing and thinking...

if really really your concern towards me is just to make yourself feel better...

please save it up....cause it make me feel worst...

or you really want to be friend ... please stop it !

cause it is impossible...

don't let me hate you....

don't let me hate you...

don't let me hate you...

i don't want to~~~~~

原来

到现在

我家人

还想我做白领阶级

而不是

我的梦想

我的心

很痛

为什么

就不能

支持我的梦想

我累了

精神上

快疯了

I NEED A FUCKING GET AWAY FROM HERE !!!

~smoke~

思想在沉淀

行为在放荡-ing

不知道为什么

只知道 - 这样，感觉舒畅多 :)

人生偶尔，就要如此

-像个橡皮筋，偶尔拉紧偶尔放松-

现在，我的行为在放松者~~~~

无需责任

張惠妹 趁早

One and Only - Adele (Lyrics)

are u the one and only man in my life ???

can u be the one and only ???

i don't wan t more...but only one ???

will it be demanding ???

btw~i miss you...i dream of you this morning...

is a sweet one...but the ending is sad ending...

i cry in the dream...

and my pillow is wet...

离开后，别说祝我幸福，你有什么资格祝我幸福....

爱那么短

遗忘那么长

等待

是一生最初的苍老

有些事

一转身就是一辈子

蔡健雅 - 当你离开的时候

不要想不要想!!!