empty

speechless...
no idea wats going on
no idea how it will be
no idea

really no idea

2IN1

we both were too afraid to mention tomorrow
we both were too afraid to dream bout future

we both got -after-hurt-syndrome

and now

we both working hard to get through the past
we both working hard to create a better future

oh boy,

i wonder,
do we meant to stuck with each other
and helping each other
and pulling each other

i don't know

what do i know now is...
you giving a new heart beat...
a warm and stable type...


~H.O.P.E I.S A L.O.N.G L.A.S.T.I.N.G~

i tahan
i tahan
i tahan
i tahan
i tahan

niamaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa la

Phobia

the most phobia in the heart
-you walk in and take a tour, and leave away without any sign-
just like, is supposed to be like this

闯进了

我的小世界

兜了一个圈

无声无息

消失了

理所当然

就是如此

就是为何

做了逃兵

drama drama and drama....non stop drama

last weekend is way too dramatic
till
i almost can't digest it

i have no idea
why it will turned out this way

i always wanted to get rid of drama queen title
the more i struggle
the more it stick hard with me

oh gosh

you driving me nuts
insane

what la you

~i hate you~

你的表现

让我不知所措

让我神经错乱

你的表现

让我时刻提醒

提醒，这只是幻觉

幻影，不会永久的

你这个自私的乌龟王八蛋

oh boy

oh boy,
u r torturing me mentally and physically
i have no idea y do u being so harsh on me
and wanted me to become a -tough girl-

i might weak,
but does not mean i'm not tough

maybe it just does not meet ur requirement...

but anyway,
i'll try my best to be the best
cause i know i deserve better too

but,
u too deserve the same
dun judge urself so badly
mayb u have ur own reason
yet i still dun agree on ur mindset....

everyone had their right and deserve on what they should have

gambate...
i'm eager to see the future u creating now

烟

交错的心情
交错的感触

为何，人那么爱犯贱
为何，自己不喜爱的却要去犯

安分守己
很难吗 ？

为何，要如此为难自己，为难身边人

人生就饿是那么的，那么的，无奈。。。

untitle book

you are just like a book for me....
every time i flip a page, you amuse me...
every time i read on the content, you attract me...

hope,
this is an endless book
which i can keep reading it
keep being amused
keep being attracted

this time, i won't rush
i'll read it slowly...
i'll never stop reading, if you are not leavving

~Bliss~

you've impressed me in a night
is that your true-self
or you changed without my noticed
or
you were wearing a mask all the while

this is not a mattered any more
wearing a mask or not
you choose to open up to me
-i appreciated-
-truly appreciated-

i like the you - now

i'm glad
"friend"

we'll grow together
we'll fight together

to achieve our own dream our own future

梦， 惊醒

感情总败在于

-时间-

很残酷的
清洗一切
总以为
-刻苦铭心-
的一段情

夜里的驾驶
街灯的一闪一闪

猛然的惊醒
原来
一切的一切

剩下的
只有

支离破碎 的
回忆

支离破碎 的
感触

支离破碎 的
情

支离破碎 的
想不起
一个完整 的
回忆
一个完整 的
感觉

连最痛心的
也只剩下
叹气

浑然
以 -没了-
带过

也忘了
当初
为什么

-为何开始-
-为何离开-


下一段的恋情
不是， 可以找到更好的
而是， 可以找到更合适的

dare not open heart

cause

afraid of falling into you

before

i get to know you well

dare not open heart

cause

afraid of blinding myself

before 

i get to know know you well

-anonymous- 

H.O.L.D

seems like the previous thought need to be on hold
the time haven't - not yet
let it flew with the wind
just hold on hold on...


the true worth the wait
if couldn't be wait
is no point to be understand

you don't know me by now

对于你
好像有点不公平
你，对我总是真心与真诚
让我有机会，了解与认知你
但是我，却
是否我应，对你真诚
好让你更了解我这个无厘头之人
（犹豫中）

to be or not to be

being a person
sometimes is hard
especially when you wanna being as yourself
but
seriously
who can accept the real you ?

everyone have their own preference and liking

some may accept
some may not

so how ?

blend yourself in different way when in different situation lo

then how, if wanna myself...

then be it when you are alone...
sigh~~~

~no idea~

blending mixing

there r so many things running in my mind now....
making me insomnia hmm

1st : i had a dream
is a scary dream
a dream which i can't hit my sales target
and actually is happening
aikssss
so, i can see how pressure and stress i am till, i can't utter to words from my mouth

2nd : fear approaches
my promise
my dream
it haunt me again...
and i need to face the fear of "if, i fail how"
cause i know
i cannot fail
i only can success
shit !

3rd : lovely kids
owh cute kids really make me wanna marry and get pregnant....
they are so pure and innocent and cute
i love them....
damm la !!! i'm still single weh...how to get marry and get pregnant
aih !


4th : commitment
36th years of marriage lifetime
it make me wonder
what is the core "thing" that can maintain this long relationship
and still so lovely
my father and my mother
they prove me that
actually fairy tale does happened
is just that it don't happened in kingdom
but it happened right in front of me
and prove that - love still around
they going through many of up and down
and yet...they still holding hand crossing finger tightly
never thinking of letting go
this love
which i can't see it in society nowadays
which this that making me losing faith on it
i hope i have the courage to truly love again

5th : hatred
my sis friend went to a camp
then is bout mentally innerly training....
what so ever
bla bla bla
she asked me a question
did you hate anybody by now ?
or example do you hate your ex
and my answer of course yes, but not my ex
is the bitch i hate
lolxxxxx ok i know is rude
and she said, is not good to hate...
cause it will stop you from growing
i know...
it will be part of my obstacle
one day i'll forgive her
now ? sorry i can't...

cocoon otw butterfly

-bad day-

there always up and down in life
and i feel that this is my down moment...
p/s : maybe not very down....but for me is quite down ady...

alot of thinking and feeling
i use to keep with myself
and keep it too well...
no body ever noticed
till ~~~ being misunderstand
p/s : is part of my fault, but why should i reveal all those emotion ?

well,
aquarius is a water
so
what happened to me now is...

i'm as a water
trying to fit into
a new bottles
a new shape
a new environment

i'm struggling to fit in
p/s : i'm very insecure actually, don't know what to afraid....is really don't know, and don't ask me why...i'm just insecure....i'm trying the best to overcome it...the problem is....i am the problem

i'm finding a way
a way of my way

i know i can make it...
hope it won't take too long to do so....
i'm not young anymore...i know it...
aikssss....shit

p/s : my hormone imbalance is really severe and terrible...it really affects me - innermost and outermost

不明白
为什么
要把小女人
硬生生的
训练成
大女人
-泪-

Separate Lives ~ Phil Collins / Marilyn Martin

and yes
we choose to separate lives
one day, i'll see into your eyes
but right now...
we living in separate lives...   

~bottle~

when your bottle are full with water
you'll hardly gained new spice in ya life

life is like a circle
it needed to be pour off sometimes
and
it needed to be fully filled at a moment

nothing maintain
nothing remain

the only consistency in life is
"it never change" is the changing of the life

wouldn't life be dull if your bottle is "too" full with water
till a limit which
new life could not be add in

25th

the number 25th
what does it indicates in your life ?
what does it means in your life ?

what is "25th"

is a stress
is a quarterly
is a turning point
is a decision making time

sentences that keep appeared in mind

~sigh~

~on fire~

i wish to make it grow faster
but i know
take-time-
rush will only make things crash

even tho the fire inside me is burning hot and strong
but,
i need to hold it and control it...

cause,
over flaming will only burn

it'll lost its shinning purpose
it'll lost its warming purpose

the pure and simple thoughts
will turned into ashes

-believe-
as long as still moving
as long as did not stop

the effort will paid

lost

struggling in between
feeling so hard now

still figuring how to overcome

overcome the unknown

hope it will be fine and be better

-insecure-

voices where have you been...
needed you so much...
your support meant alot

whats wrong ler ?

i have no idea on what the fuck
or
what is wrong with my body

easily gets exhausted like a granny
and always not enough sleep

i slept before 12am

and woke up at 8 plus....

is more than enough

or is it too much ????

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i don't know weh~~~~~~

is time for more exercise....
but not for today
lolxxxxxxxxxxxxx

noises

人为何
要有脾气
人为何
要吵架
人为何
那么的复杂

为什么
不能好好的
想想他的立场
为什么
不能好好的
放下升段

不明白

我只知道
你们的
吵架声

很反感
很讨厌
很严重
影响我的情绪

只能说 tmd ! shut up !!!

Answer that never get

L.O.V.E
or to be precise
R.E.L.A.T.I.O.N.S.H.I.P

this is a topic where every one will like to discuss
a never ending discussion

it will never had a confirm answer or formula for it
is always a blank left there to be fill in

but - none can judge

why is it not a formula like the maths 1+1=2

i need an answer
so that it won't went wrong in the middle or even at the starting
wouldn't it be easier for everyone
if there is a fix confirm answer and formula for it....

awww i dislike the feeling of waiting...
i only wait for food...
not a respond~~~

corrupted mind

little disappointed
heart - aching very badly

i don't know how to convert the feeling into words
it just felt so bad

it just felt not right

it just felt shouldn't be that way

tho is your way to show your support
but i don't really appreciate it
the sincerity has corrupted with your little evil thoughts
~is not pure~

but thanks for the past effort you made
and
everything will be better

初心

最初的心

你还在吗？

不要被周围的环境所逼

破坏了

你最终最初的

那颗心

你当初

为何

要选着这条路？

你还记得吗？

由衷

的心情

加油

excessive !

忽然之间
有很多很多
多出来的时间

多的
我
不知该如何运用

感觉
有点
糟蹋

有点
内疚

天！！！
 快快想有什么可以做的

不然会很懒很懒的

我不想变成猪

appointment appointment
i wan more
i wan more
i wan more
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

想了

錯過花，


你將收穫雨，


錯過雨，

你會遇到彩虹。

***********************************************

今夜，

感触又再次的侵蚀我的       

思觉
严重的
陷入     悲伤
该说是

感伤

要下雨了

心情也沉重了

真的很怀疑

很怀疑

心

你伤好了吗 ？

痊愈了吗

还是

麻了

习惯了

不知

只知道

偶尔

会像今夜

突然地

痛 来袭

泪 来袭

沉重

伤感

但不知

是为何物

就想呆呆的

呆呆的

看着夜空

看着繁星

看着月光

等待

泪的 停止

damm

江山易改
本性难移

this would refer to me and you

i'm this temper and this personality which lead to this character

and same to you too...

i've tried once to change myself so that i can fit into you

but am so so sorry....

the answer is CANNOT !

it needs two person to make the effort...

not only me

YOU !!! KNS KNN NIAMA FUCK !!!!

-if crying could soothe the problems-
-i would cry a river down-

problem found

if you said 

i had emotional affect

and you asked

where do i get it from

i think i know the answer 

is from two person

that can gives effect on my emotion change

-omg-

how do i will get better

you said

i only can get better when i got stable emotion

but i said

if i can't get away from them

or

if i can't adjust myself to them

T.T i can never get better

-shit-

"so near yet so far"

again

i dream of u

tho we are physically far apart

but some how,

mentally i'm not

this time the dream do not give me much emotional affect

but

it leaves me number questions

maybe as chinese saying

think too much on daily

and night it become your dream

a symbol of spiritual release where you can't realize in reality life

i'll name this dream as "so near yet so far"

almost a year

everything change so dramatically

and so do i

so do you

Julia Stone - I'm Here, I'm Not Here

love game

爱情
这玩意

起初
你以为你在掌控着它

到头来
原来，你已被侵入了

请不要玩
请不要挑战

别以为
你已很了解爱情游戏这玩意

因为
当你陷入
你不知自

-当你心痛时，朋友加油吧-
-这是你必须承受的情绪折磨-

一时风光
真的只是   -   一时   -   而已

A myth that never end

If u r given a chance A chance to choose the path u wan Will u let go everything u having now And restart everything new again according to the chances given ? But with a consequences Ur memory will be erase Ur fren no longer be with u Ur childhood change Everything around that happened now and past all will an empty memory Will u ? If ur life now tho is not very satisfied Not very impressive Not very wealthy But u hv bunch of lovely supportive frens U hv family members that never leave u How ? Restart Or remain Which will u choose ? Life is always miserable Life is always a myth U never knew the best path were actually does not suite u U never knew u actually had the best in ur life How u calculate How u define How to do a conclusion -

至，最爱的一封信

被家人怂恿去上了 'Basic Training Course'
然后，主办单位要求学员们写一封信
写一封给你最爱的人
晕 -.-'''

-认真思考中-
**********************************************

至最爱的，
-30岁-

你，满意吗
你，快乐吗
你，这个是你要的吗
脸上 还挂着 从心底里 的 笑容吗 ？

30岁了- 生活有没有过的像18岁时所幻想的憧憬

如果没有

为什么，会如此 ？
为什么，不改变 ？

我可不想一辈子都如此

如此的 -
发梦
期望
希望
到最后
变成了
妄想

这6年，你都干什么去了。。。

-30岁-
如果，你满意现状
如果，你快乐
如果，这是你要的

我，开心
我，值得
一切的努力
我甘愿
6年的代价，很值得很值得
换得一辈子的憧憬

勿忘 - 人生就是要享受，就是要快乐，开心

from : year 2012 的迷茫小羊

Confidence

sometimes i do have my temper and emotion
i might look nothing wrong
but i know my fear inside

and i know u do have your fear
but please trust that
everyone will be by your side

when you needed a hand
the first thing you need to do is
show your hand to us
which that,
we only can hold you

and trust
trust again that you still can trust
trust on things you wanna trust
trust the person you wanna trust

if being cheated again
never mind is ok

just smile and said
i'll try my best again
and one day
i'll find someone that really worth that trust...

jia you jia you
gambate ~~~

TemPo

i somehow
find my own tempo
tempo of life

but is not individual tempo

is a tempo of a group

blended myself tempo with the other

is the tempo of harmony

have you found your own tempo ?

silence habit - silence killer

silent

awake me that

u had become part of my life

u have turned it as a habit in my life

i wonder

if this were part of ur plan

i am insecure

i shall get rid of this habit as soon as possible

before i am addicted

u idiot !!!

Time

there is a feeling
i had kept it deep some where corner of my heart

till i almost forgot bout its existence

there is a thing
i had kept hide it deep some were inside my brain

till i almost ignore its existence

you may said it was type of denial and runaway

but

for me, is a way i can soothe down my emotion

and slowly let the time take over the pain

and slowly let the time wash away the pain

and slowly let the time - make me stronger


don't ask me why i still can't let go
cause
i'm still learning how to let go
i'm on my way
i'm standing up with my own
not with a substitution

i'm proud to say that...

~changes~

if this is a turning point

i'll accept it with joy and great heart

cause i know

this is god planned it for me

is just whether i wanna accept it or not

hmmm

now, i'm ready :)

padlock

枷锁

太紧 太紧

勒的

太紧 太紧

最终

才醒然

从未放松过

从未放过己

一直都在为难着

与己过不去

art of ignorance

the art of ignorance

we have our own thoughts
we have our own behavior
we have our own attitude
we have our own principle

there is lots of thing and people outside there
which is
opposite from what we think
opposite form what we behave
opposite from what we do
opposite from out principle

we can't make them to do what we do
we can't make them to thing what we thing

the only thing we can do is

INFLUENCE

if influence can't works

the best solution is

IGNORE

to avoid from getting upset and anxious ~~~

your r the  person who raise me

so ???

means i need to obey  like a soldier without own feeling

sorry to be honest

impossible

i still stay respect

because of wad u hv sacrifice

but not because i truly respect who u r

god damm it!!!

can u stop doing thing that makes me hate u even more...

am really feeling to earn as much as i can

and move out from this bloody hell !!!

speechless

如果如此
持续发疯

我真的要离家出走了

to be honest
my EQ is not high

dun try to test my limit
when i burst
i don't know what hurtful thing i might do

pls pls !!!
stop the drama
before i give you drama

怄气 ？？？

为何怄气
怄气赢了
又如何

搞到气氛如此
然后？

不明白
想不透

个人觉得
这是个浪费时间的心理折磨
对不起
对我没效

但是
因为你
搞到
全部人如此紧张兮兮

真的很令人讨厌
因为
想置身事外
都很难

都被拖下水了
knn

我已经很烦了
为何
要多添加我的苦

你成熟点好吗

烦！！！
最近都不想呆在家

silence

有时候
真的很想把自己孤立起来
不想与任何人相处与沟通
讨厌复杂的情绪
讨厌复杂的感觉
讨厌复杂的猜思

只与自己沟通
那该多好
宁愿寂寞
也不愿与人交流

简单的
坦白的

很难吗 ？

sometimes i just don't get it

seriously, how do i respect someone that is superior than me

when he is not respecting others

and so rude in the public

humiliating own kind

doesn't it make you feel bad or heartache

so many years

i've seen it and feel it

i still couldn't get used of it

i only can persuade myself

"accept"

can i just ignore and don't bother

don't drag me in can ?

give me my little heaven

little peace

sensitive moment

maybe wad am doing now is not wad i had plan earlier
the process or the track i'm going is totally apart from what i want earlier

i had always asked
ask myself whether it is right

how if it is wrong

will be wrong

or it is destiny to be that way

i had no idea

but just follow what my intuition is

seriously,

after so many many things that happened
i don't really bother bout the process anymore

i am well aware of the result

the result that will brings me a better life and lesser problems

i'm sickening of troubles
i'm sickening of things around me that can cause me sleepless night

don't questioned me anything
just support will do
cause things never turn in what you want
but it teaches me how to trade from one to another to get the end result

last time
process meant alots to me
but now
result means more to me

if what i'm doing now can please my family
i'll do
i'm tired to walk against their way

-not any negative thought-
-is just a sentimental thought-
-is just a sigh-
-is just a symbol of getting older-
-think in other way round, is actually not a bad thing-

friendz

this is the friendship

this is the bond

this is us

just us

life never waits

and time never stop

everything change

but the emotion and feeling

never change

this is what that brings us together

and support each other till now

awwww love u guys...

next trip is planning~~~

a tips...

somewhere cold~~~

noises

having a fucking weird dream few days ago
have forgotten the scene
but i remember the noises in there

is really fucking annoying noise
there lots lots lots of people
i assume
buzzing there
keep talking and talking and talking

is so ~~~ noisy
till i'm awake from the dream in the morning
and got a substance headache

my friend said is a symptoms
symptoms of i had too may things to concern
too many things left undone

and that's why it bothering me till
i got this fucking weird dream

and the whole day
i felt the surround
is so annoying and noisy

i wan an inner peace...

i shall chao and go to cafe to get a peace there with cup of coffee~~~

sexual maniac

just realize i'm part of the SM
i'm the M part
as according to my sis...lolxxxx

well some incident happened yesterday,
tho is kinda sad but deeply in heart i'm feeling satisfied and happy...

oh well oh well
i'm not going to describe it clearly...
cause is a granma story
but...the SM i'm talking here is not the sex part of SM

hehehehe
i'm a space of imagination for u guys here...
tata~~~today is lovely morning saturday with period pain WTF !!!

黑风洞

其实
内心还是黑暗无比
空洞从未变小
然而应该也没再深下去

懊恼
为何那么胆小

懊恼
为何那么胆却

懊恼
为何那么在意

表面看是平静
那是因为
伪装的伎俩
更甚一筹了
装的，连自己也被糊弄了

只能靠些
风花雪月
蒙混的
情感
掩饰内心的颤抖

借酒消愁

愁更愁

看着烟云

度虚年

drunk

after so long

it can't be deny that the heart is lock

cause of u

when the most fragile time

it is even prove that the heart never leave u alone

anyhow

the decision make in the last is the most desirable decision ever

wishing the best of the best for u

~ never regret of the decision make ~

无形

的

言辞

无形

的

心情

从未变过

依然强烈

保重

the voice

just hold on tight on what you believe

process is not a big matter after all

but the ending the result is the most of the concern

what you want

what you hope

that's the most vitality thought

principle is just a guideline to lead you to your path

is not a rules or padlock that block you away from getting your dream comes true

i'm doing what that gets me to my dream

unplanned process will lead me to a better memory and experience

so i won't mind what process i will encounter

cause

unexpected thing always surprise me

exception or w/o

is there any exception ?

i wonder~~~

seeing too many ugly truth

it change my positiveness towards people's words

sorry

not to offend

but just to protect myself more

how ?

思想影响了思维

思维成了你的决定

决定导致你的作为

你的作为将是你的人格

人格成为了你的形象

人们就是以你的形象

来认知你

那我

是如何的形象在大众的眼里

hey friend,

i know u r freak out

nvm is ok

we are always there with u

helping u to find out the answer

i'm strong enough to handle

ur sudden idiotic demand

u just need to buy me a good dinner

that's all what i want

just FYI

(anyone who read it)

i'm not ready yet

cause i'm not fully recover

so pls stay a distance

a safe distance

before u or u or u

who ever

get poke by my thorns

致 ：愚蠢的家伙

一瓶红酒

一系列 julia stone 的歌曲

慢慢的

慢慢的

疏解我心中的纳闷

迟钝了

我的感官

延慢了心中思念

缓慢了心中无奈

今夜，想你了

终于

汹涌的

汹涌的

舍不得

都掩盖不住了

~我真愚蠢~

looking out the window

the sky reminds me that

the world is big

there is lot of things waiting there to be done

but right now

this moment

i wanna pause

pause the rushing tempo

and enjoy

enjoy the feeling of thinking bout you

its been long

i did not really care what i'm feeling truly

and now

i'm glad

i'm not truly blind myself by making tight schedule

i know

the feeling

will slowly

slowly

fade off

never regret of loving

but

regret it never ever lasting

~cheers for ppl that reading my blog~

if and only if and only you know

何曾有过

满满的感觉

在一夜间，空了

何曾有过

曾以为永恒不变

在一夜间，变了

何曾有过

挣扎许久，以为不能

在一夜间，通了

如果

可以

我想，

在一夜间，执着没了

那该有多好。。。

sentimental night

never stop thinking of you

never stop thinking of the scene

never stop thinking of the decision

never stop from regretting

hey,

can you tell me

if

and if

that scene

the decision choose is different

will be the ending be different too?

will be the result be different from now?

hey,

can you tell?

hey,

how to let you go from my world ?

Julia Stone - The Memory Machine lyrics

there are some scene happened in life

which we never can forget how it feels

and the only words we can utter to describe this feeling are

-i miss u-

shattering

the biggest fear in me

-high expectation- from people around me

this is a big stress and tension

yes, it can be a positive drive but its a pressure which i couldn't ignore and let it go

all i can said is...

be the best

do the best

~sigh~

by the way

i appreciate the honor given by everyone....

心里

好模糊

明明

看得见的前路

如今

我好像迷路了

天啊

雾啊雾啊

快散开

-最终的问题-

心态

执着无谓的执著 - 遗憾

昨夜

与友人深谈后

才发觉

原来

到如今

为何我的心，偶时会不知觉的 - 痛 ， 酸

感觉有种遗憾

有种，错了的感觉

原来

我的遗憾来自“那天”

如果那天

我坚持

我忍受

我静思

也许

结局

会有所不一样

是我不够

- 坚强

- 忍辱

- 等待

吗？

原来

我会为此

而流泪

因为

我是那么的在意

好想有个从来

如果那天-我做了不一样的决定

今天，的结局应该不是如此。。。

竟是如此

也许 - 只有荒唐

因为

我就是-我-

即使有个-从来-

我，还是会做回原来的决定

太傲慢了

我忍受不了-些许委屈

也许，

到头来

我选择，爱自己多一点

所以，放弃了-坚持-

我没那个毅力

我承认

still having deep feeling on you

but it lost confirmation

"it" lost the purpose of loving

and miserable whether it is loving

or actually a matter of winning

feeling upset for the lost of the loved one

or

feeling upset for the lost of the relationship that built

all lost its conformity

unanswered question ever

well,

valentine coming

making me even more sensitive and sentimental

love you

well care

原

原来

女人味 是如此酝酿

原来

魅力 是如此创造

原来

成熟 是如此培养

这一切 的一切

都要经过

撕心裂肺 痛心 泪水

所得来的

真的 很不容易

真的 千辛万苦

真的 坎坷

偶时

心酸，

为何美丽的背后

总是要经过一番的丑陋

dream @ reality

facts

-dream can't give you better live, if gives you hardwork and tiredness, but you earn the grace of a mentality-

-reality, you aim for nothing but only the pieces of paper that we called money, a value that gives good life-

sometimes how good i wish i have no wish no aim

so that i can blend into my family

and doing what they are doing

sometimes how good i wish my family just like last time

moderate living

so that i still can do what i want to do

and they will not over border my choices

sometimes how good i wish

i'm just an obedient girl, not strong principle

so that i can follow my family footstep

and i'm happy to do what they wanted me to be

sometimes,

is just sometimes

reality still a reality

i just hope that i can hang on till i reach i touch i get my dream that

they never understand and value

i only can said

we have different perception

cause i might be the exception of this family

(i need a shoulder for me to lean when i'm lost and tired, cause i'm tired of the question anymore)

怀疑

每一次

都怀疑

有梦想

有理想

是好事吗

在这个家庭里

也许

不

因为

现实都是残酷

梦想，靠不住

那，

现在

我该放弃

我所坚持

的梦想吗

给予 - 一直纠缠环绕的问题

all the best :)

不知觉

原来有整整一个月了

整个月的相处下来

真的真的

很梦幻

也很飘渺

梦幻泡影

似真亦假

但这次

是真的了

祝你一路顺风

有缘

还是会再 见的吧

有心还是会保持联络的吧

~随缘随缘~

you are just like a mood controller for me

is glad to know you

cause i loved fireworks