silence habit - silence killer

silent

awake me that

u had become part of my life

u have turned it as a habit in my life

i wonder

if this were part of ur plan

i am insecure

i shall get rid of this habit as soon as possible

before i am addicted

u idiot !!!

Time

there is a feeling
i had kept it deep some where corner of my heart

till i almost forgot bout its existence

there is a thing
i had kept hide it deep some were inside my brain

till i almost ignore its existence

you may said it was type of denial and runaway

but

for me, is a way i can soothe down my emotion

and slowly let the time take over the pain

and slowly let the time wash away the pain

and slowly let the time - make me stronger


don't ask me why i still can't let go
cause
i'm still learning how to let go
i'm on my way
i'm standing up with my own
not with a substitution

i'm proud to say that...

~changes~

if this is a turning point

i'll accept it with joy and great heart

cause i know

this is god planned it for me

is just whether i wanna accept it or not

hmmm

now, i'm ready :)

padlock

枷锁

太紧 太紧

勒的

太紧 太紧

最终

才醒然

从未放松过

从未放过己

一直都在为难着

与己过不去

art of ignorance

the art of ignorance

we have our own thoughts
we have our own behavior
we have our own attitude
we have our own principle

there is lots of thing and people outside there
which is
opposite from what we think
opposite form what we behave
opposite from what we do
opposite from out principle

we can't make them to do what we do
we can't make them to thing what we thing

the only thing we can do is

INFLUENCE

if influence can't works

the best solution is

IGNORE

to avoid from getting upset and anxious ~~~

your r the  person who raise me

so ???

means i need to obey  like a soldier without own feeling

sorry to be honest

impossible

i still stay respect

because of wad u hv sacrifice

but not because i truly respect who u r

god damm it!!!

can u stop doing thing that makes me hate u even more...

am really feeling to earn as much as i can

and move out from this bloody hell !!!

speechless

如果如此
持续发疯

我真的要离家出走了

to be honest
my EQ is not high

dun try to test my limit
when i burst
i don't know what hurtful thing i might do

pls pls !!!
stop the drama
before i give you drama

怄气 ？？？

为何怄气
怄气赢了
又如何

搞到气氛如此
然后？

不明白
想不透

个人觉得
这是个浪费时间的心理折磨
对不起
对我没效

但是
因为你
搞到
全部人如此紧张兮兮

真的很令人讨厌
因为
想置身事外
都很难

都被拖下水了
knn

我已经很烦了
为何
要多添加我的苦

你成熟点好吗

烦！！！
最近都不想呆在家

silence

有时候
真的很想把自己孤立起来
不想与任何人相处与沟通
讨厌复杂的情绪
讨厌复杂的感觉
讨厌复杂的猜思

只与自己沟通
那该多好
宁愿寂寞
也不愿与人交流

简单的
坦白的

很难吗 ？

sometimes i just don't get it

seriously, how do i respect someone that is superior than me

when he is not respecting others

and so rude in the public

humiliating own kind

doesn't it make you feel bad or heartache

so many years

i've seen it and feel it

i still couldn't get used of it

i only can persuade myself

"accept"

can i just ignore and don't bother

don't drag me in can ?

give me my little heaven

little peace

sensitive moment

maybe wad am doing now is not wad i had plan earlier
the process or the track i'm going is totally apart from what i want earlier

i had always asked
ask myself whether it is right

how if it is wrong

will be wrong

or it is destiny to be that way

i had no idea

but just follow what my intuition is

seriously,

after so many many things that happened
i don't really bother bout the process anymore

i am well aware of the result

the result that will brings me a better life and lesser problems

i'm sickening of troubles
i'm sickening of things around me that can cause me sleepless night

don't questioned me anything
just support will do
cause things never turn in what you want
but it teaches me how to trade from one to another to get the end result

last time
process meant alots to me
but now
result means more to me

if what i'm doing now can please my family
i'll do
i'm tired to walk against their way

-not any negative thought-
-is just a sentimental thought-
-is just a sigh-
-is just a symbol of getting older-
-think in other way round, is actually not a bad thing-

friendz

this is the friendship

this is the bond

this is us

just us

life never waits

and time never stop

everything change

but the emotion and feeling

never change

this is what that brings us together

and support each other till now

awwww love u guys...

next trip is planning~~~

a tips...

somewhere cold~~~

noises

having a fucking weird dream few days ago
have forgotten the scene
but i remember the noises in there

is really fucking annoying noise
there lots lots lots of people
i assume
buzzing there
keep talking and talking and talking

is so ~~~ noisy
till i'm awake from the dream in the morning
and got a substance headache

my friend said is a symptoms
symptoms of i had too may things to concern
too many things left undone

and that's why it bothering me till
i got this fucking weird dream

and the whole day
i felt the surround
is so annoying and noisy

i wan an inner peace...

i shall chao and go to cafe to get a peace there with cup of coffee~~~