thoughts million million of thought * wiping tears*

22/2/2013
an odd day which i scrolled and have a peek on the old photos
years and years

~empty~

the only word appeared in mind
not to say, the past of mine are empty
the empty here means

-what comes, it goes-
-what seemed so clear, yet faded with mist-

the relationship i had, was once the honey bee,
in end, it turns like a rotten grapes
-sucks-

the friendship i had, was once bond,
in end, it gone no where
no where, till i can't even trace the tie
-ouch-

so,
the old one will said, always said
~this are life mar, nothing stays, nothing impossible, nothing~

oh ya,
the health i had, was once awesome, so awesome
in end, worst than a nanny
-fuck-

all of the above,
doesn't means my life is a disaster right now
and also
doesn't means my life is sad

i found a new guy in life
(praying hard so hard and fucking hard, hopefully, NO...not hopefully...must...this guy must...love me forever and ever)
*puke* ahahahahahahahaha
he is a big guy that always torture me...
but i ain't weak...hiak hiak hiak...

i having a much healthy life (force to be)
but, is much better than party life...
i feel more...down to earth...
if u were party before, hardcore type...
u will know my meaning here...

friendship...
is much stable, tho not so huuu haaaa like last time...
not so often keep in touch, but u know....man yea man...
that's what i mean...LOL...

couldn't admit that
I'M OLD !!!
25th this year...
but
my heart is always and always 18th...
just like the girl who are just starting to explore the world
yea~~~hi 5