damm

江山易改
本性难移

this would refer to me and you

i'm this temper and this personality which lead to this character

and same to you too...

i've tried once to change myself so that i can fit into you

but am so so sorry....

the answer is CANNOT !

it needs two person to make the effort...

not only me

YOU !!! KNS KNN NIAMA FUCK !!!!

-if crying could soothe the problems-
-i would cry a river down-

problem found

if you said 

i had emotional affect

and you asked

where do i get it from

i think i know the answer 

is from two person

that can gives effect on my emotion change

-omg-

how do i will get better

you said

i only can get better when i got stable emotion

but i said

if i can't get away from them

or

if i can't adjust myself to them

T.T i can never get better

-shit-

"so near yet so far"

again

i dream of u

tho we are physically far apart

but some how,

mentally i'm not

this time the dream do not give me much emotional affect

but

it leaves me number questions

maybe as chinese saying

think too much on daily

and night it become your dream

a symbol of spiritual release where you can't realize in reality life

i'll name this dream as "so near yet so far"

almost a year

everything change so dramatically

and so do i

so do you

Julia Stone - I'm Here, I'm Not Here

love game

爱情
这玩意

起初
你以为你在掌控着它

到头来
原来，你已被侵入了

请不要玩
请不要挑战

别以为
你已很了解爱情游戏这玩意

因为
当你陷入
你不知自

-当你心痛时，朋友加油吧-
-这是你必须承受的情绪折磨-

一时风光
真的只是   -   一时   -   而已

A myth that never end

If u r given a chance A chance to choose the path u wan Will u let go everything u having now And restart everything new again according to the chances given ? But with a consequences Ur memory will be erase Ur fren no longer be with u Ur childhood change Everything around that happened now and past all will an empty memory Will u ? If ur life now tho is not very satisfied Not very impressive Not very wealthy But u hv bunch of lovely supportive frens U hv family members that never leave u How ? Restart Or remain Which will u choose ? Life is always miserable Life is always a myth U never knew the best path were actually does not suite u U never knew u actually had the best in ur life How u calculate How u define How to do a conclusion -

至，最爱的一封信

被家人怂恿去上了 'Basic Training Course'
然后，主办单位要求学员们写一封信
写一封给你最爱的人
晕 -.-'''

-认真思考中-
**********************************************

至最爱的，
-30岁-

你，满意吗
你，快乐吗
你，这个是你要的吗
脸上 还挂着 从心底里 的 笑容吗 ？

30岁了- 生活有没有过的像18岁时所幻想的憧憬

如果没有

为什么，会如此 ？
为什么，不改变 ？

我可不想一辈子都如此

如此的 -
发梦
期望
希望
到最后
变成了
妄想

这6年，你都干什么去了。。。

-30岁-
如果，你满意现状
如果，你快乐
如果，这是你要的

我，开心
我，值得
一切的努力
我甘愿
6年的代价，很值得很值得
换得一辈子的憧憬

勿忘 - 人生就是要享受，就是要快乐，开心

from : year 2012 的迷茫小羊