lost

struggling in between
feeling so hard now

still figuring how to overcome

overcome the unknown

hope it will be fine and be better

-insecure-

voices where have you been...
needed you so much...
your support meant alot

想了

錯過花，


你將收穫雨，


錯過雨，

你會遇到彩虹。

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今夜，

感触又再次的侵蚀我的       

思觉
严重的
陷入     悲伤
该说是

感伤

要下雨了

心情也沉重了

真的很怀疑

很怀疑

心

你伤好了吗 ？

痊愈了吗

还是

麻了

习惯了

不知

只知道

偶尔

会像今夜

突然地

痛 来袭

泪 来袭

沉重

伤感

但不知

是为何物

就想呆呆的

呆呆的

看着夜空

看着繁星

看着月光

等待

泪的 停止

A myth that never end

If u r given a chance A chance to choose the path u wan Will u let go everything u having now And restart everything new again according to the chances given ? But with a consequences Ur memory will be erase Ur fren no longer be with u Ur childhood change Everything around that happened now and past all will an empty memory Will u ? If ur life now tho is not very satisfied Not very impressive Not very wealthy But u hv bunch of lovely supportive frens U hv family members that never leave u How ? Restart Or remain Which will u choose ? Life is always miserable Life is always a myth U never knew the best path were actually does not suite u U never knew u actually had the best in ur life How u calculate How u define How to do a conclusion -

黑风洞

其实
内心还是黑暗无比
空洞从未变小
然而应该也没再深下去

懊恼
为何那么胆小

懊恼
为何那么胆却

懊恼
为何那么在意

表面看是平静
那是因为
伪装的伎俩
更甚一筹了
装的，连自己也被糊弄了

只能靠些
风花雪月
蒙混的
情感
掩饰内心的颤抖

借酒消愁

愁更愁

看着烟云

度虚年

if and only if and only you know

何曾有过

满满的感觉

在一夜间，空了

何曾有过

曾以为永恒不变

在一夜间，变了

何曾有过

挣扎许久，以为不能

在一夜间，通了

如果

可以

我想，

在一夜间，执着没了

那该有多好。。。

sentimental night

never stop thinking of you

never stop thinking of the scene

never stop thinking of the decision

never stop from regretting

hey,

can you tell me

if

and if

that scene

the decision choose is different

will be the ending be different too?

will be the result be different from now?

hey,

can you tell?

hey,

how to let you go from my world ?

shattering

the biggest fear in me

-high expectation- from people around me

this is a big stress and tension

yes, it can be a positive drive but its a pressure which i couldn't ignore and let it go

all i can said is...

be the best

do the best

~sigh~

by the way

i appreciate the honor given by everyone....

心里

好模糊

明明

看得见的前路

如今

我好像迷路了

天啊

雾啊雾啊

快散开

-最终的问题-

心态

sorry

对不起

对自己说

让自己

一次又一次的

放纵

放肆

食言

对不起

对爱我的朋友

一次又一次

让你们

失望

唉！

我的定力

我的念力

我的坚持

我的原则

我的自律

去了哪里啦 ？

再这样下去

我的人生

就是一踏糊涂了

吊 ！

i dunno why i did not reject

there is so many ways i can do to reject

but i did not

and i just let it be

why does this happened ?

i'm feeling that i'm searching so answer

searching something there

but i just couldn't describe it solidly

what i want to find out ?

what am i curious of ?

i had no idea

first time is like that

second time also like that

my life is a mess now

totally gone mess

awwwwwww

my limit expanded

or lets say

i had no limit at all now

OMG !!!

sentimental

今夜特感性

那个梦

真的把沉睡的心

摇醒了

泪不停不停

的划过脸颊

累的夜

但，脑海特清醒

果然

没想像中好

太执着了

i'm just

someone

with

incomplete

heart

don't

come

near

me

cause

i

don't

wish

to

hurt

you

i

can't

give

you

return

can

you

give

up

on

me

?

seriously

i'm not ready

you

exist in wrong timing

emo

being whole day staying at home resting

is not a good thing for me

the day without activities

the day without hassles

i think alot

i think bout my past

i think bout my present

i think bout my future

i'm afraid

i'm confused somehow

i can't see my future clearly

my mind is blank of it

i can't sense my present now

i don't know am i passing my day meaningfully or not

i can't let go my past so easily as i thought

i still remember every scene and every feeling of it

it still can give me a slight ache on the chest

i'm very tired today

but couldn't get a very well rest

as the brain keep spinning around the past present and future

how good

if i can just shut down

i hate miserable feelings

i hate miserable things