cocoon otw butterfly

-bad day-

there always up and down in life
and i feel that this is my down moment...
p/s : maybe not very down....but for me is quite down ady...

alot of thinking and feeling
i use to keep with myself
and keep it too well...
no body ever noticed
till ~~~ being misunderstand
p/s : is part of my fault, but why should i reveal all those emotion ?

well,
aquarius is a water
so
what happened to me now is...

i'm as a water
trying to fit into
a new bottles
a new shape
a new environment

i'm struggling to fit in
p/s : i'm very insecure actually, don't know what to afraid....is really don't know, and don't ask me why...i'm just insecure....i'm trying the best to overcome it...the problem is....i am the problem

i'm finding a way
a way of my way

i know i can make it...
hope it won't take too long to do so....
i'm not young anymore...i know it...
aikssss....shit

p/s : my hormone imbalance is really severe and terrible...it really affects me - innermost and outermost

不明白
为什么
要把小女人
硬生生的
训练成
大女人
-泪-

~on fire~

i wish to make it grow faster
but i know
take-time-
rush will only make things crash

even tho the fire inside me is burning hot and strong
but,
i need to hold it and control it...

cause,
over flaming will only burn

it'll lost its shinning purpose
it'll lost its warming purpose

the pure and simple thoughts
will turned into ashes

-believe-
as long as still moving
as long as did not stop

the effort will paid

lost

struggling in between
feeling so hard now

still figuring how to overcome

overcome the unknown

hope it will be fine and be better

-insecure-

voices where have you been...
needed you so much...
your support meant alot

Answer that never get

L.O.V.E
or to be precise
R.E.L.A.T.I.O.N.S.H.I.P

this is a topic where every one will like to discuss
a never ending discussion

it will never had a confirm answer or formula for it
is always a blank left there to be fill in

but - none can judge

why is it not a formula like the maths 1+1=2

i need an answer
so that it won't went wrong in the middle or even at the starting
wouldn't it be easier for everyone
if there is a fix confirm answer and formula for it....

awww i dislike the feeling of waiting...
i only wait for food...
not a respond~~~

A myth that never end

If u r given a chance A chance to choose the path u wan Will u let go everything u having now And restart everything new again according to the chances given ? But with a consequences Ur memory will be erase Ur fren no longer be with u Ur childhood change Everything around that happened now and past all will an empty memory Will u ? If ur life now tho is not very satisfied Not very impressive Not very wealthy But u hv bunch of lovely supportive frens U hv family members that never leave u How ? Restart Or remain Which will u choose ? Life is always miserable Life is always a myth U never knew the best path were actually does not suite u U never knew u actually had the best in ur life How u calculate How u define How to do a conclusion -

sensitive moment

maybe wad am doing now is not wad i had plan earlier
the process or the track i'm going is totally apart from what i want earlier

i had always asked
ask myself whether it is right

how if it is wrong

will be wrong

or it is destiny to be that way

i had no idea

but just follow what my intuition is

seriously,

after so many many things that happened
i don't really bother bout the process anymore

i am well aware of the result

the result that will brings me a better life and lesser problems

i'm sickening of troubles
i'm sickening of things around me that can cause me sleepless night

don't questioned me anything
just support will do
cause things never turn in what you want
but it teaches me how to trade from one to another to get the end result

last time
process meant alots to me
but now
result means more to me

if what i'm doing now can please my family
i'll do
i'm tired to walk against their way

-not any negative thought-
-is just a sentimental thought-
-is just a sigh-
-is just a symbol of getting older-
-think in other way round, is actually not a bad thing-

risk

the feeling of confuse came back to me

i just don't really know how the next step will be

i only know how to guide you to your next step

but i had forgotten how to plan my next step

what should i do now ?

i'm trembling and afraid at the moment i woke up this morning

and asking myself

was yesterday a dream ?

again - i see a dim hope

and again

i see fear came along

and again

i see the gambling table and the dealer is waiting my bet

bet my trust my heart

after all i'm just a little stupid gal

fragile - my heart calling

能够看见你的真心

让我

很感动

可惜

有点晚了

对吧

已经不如从前了

不知怎的

我又梦见了你

但是，结局是好的

可是，我一点也没开心的感觉

也没一点期待的感觉

Real @ dream

Should I
Or
Shouldn't I

I am confuse
I don't know how should I do

Is it for real ?

Hmm

Again
You make me out of my mind

I think I'm losing my mind d

I think I just follow the flow of the river ~~~

No matter what is the consequences that will come to me...

Support support
Friends pls support support

hmmm !

不对

是看错了

还是感觉错了

是错觉吗？？？

谁能给我答案 ？？？

the dream

i hate the dream

hopefully just like they said

is just a dream

but not an omen