to be or not to be

being a person
sometimes is hard
especially when you wanna being as yourself
but
seriously
who can accept the real you ?

everyone have their own preference and liking

some may accept
some may not

so how ?

blend yourself in different way when in different situation lo

then how, if wanna myself...

then be it when you are alone...
sigh~~~

~no idea~

cocoon otw butterfly

-bad day-

there always up and down in life
and i feel that this is my down moment...
p/s : maybe not very down....but for me is quite down ady...

alot of thinking and feeling
i use to keep with myself
and keep it too well...
no body ever noticed
till ~~~ being misunderstand
p/s : is part of my fault, but why should i reveal all those emotion ?

well,
aquarius is a water
so
what happened to me now is...

i'm as a water
trying to fit into
a new bottles
a new shape
a new environment

i'm struggling to fit in
p/s : i'm very insecure actually, don't know what to afraid....is really don't know, and don't ask me why...i'm just insecure....i'm trying the best to overcome it...the problem is....i am the problem

i'm finding a way
a way of my way

i know i can make it...
hope it won't take too long to do so....
i'm not young anymore...i know it...
aikssss....shit

p/s : my hormone imbalance is really severe and terrible...it really affects me - innermost and outermost

不明白
为什么
要把小女人
硬生生的
训练成
大女人
-泪-

Answer that never get

L.O.V.E
or to be precise
R.E.L.A.T.I.O.N.S.H.I.P

this is a topic where every one will like to discuss
a never ending discussion

it will never had a confirm answer or formula for it
is always a blank left there to be fill in

but - none can judge

why is it not a formula like the maths 1+1=2

i need an answer
so that it won't went wrong in the middle or even at the starting
wouldn't it be easier for everyone
if there is a fix confirm answer and formula for it....

awww i dislike the feeling of waiting...
i only wait for food...
not a respond~~~

想了

錯過花，


你將收穫雨，


錯過雨，

你會遇到彩虹。

***********************************************

今夜，

感触又再次的侵蚀我的       

思觉
严重的
陷入     悲伤
该说是

感伤

要下雨了

心情也沉重了

真的很怀疑

很怀疑

心

你伤好了吗 ？

痊愈了吗

还是

麻了

习惯了

不知

只知道

偶尔

会像今夜

突然地

痛 来袭

泪 来袭

沉重

伤感

但不知

是为何物

就想呆呆的

呆呆的

看着夜空

看着繁星

看着月光

等待

泪的 停止

A myth that never end

If u r given a chance A chance to choose the path u wan Will u let go everything u having now And restart everything new again according to the chances given ? But with a consequences Ur memory will be erase Ur fren no longer be with u Ur childhood change Everything around that happened now and past all will an empty memory Will u ? If ur life now tho is not very satisfied Not very impressive Not very wealthy But u hv bunch of lovely supportive frens U hv family members that never leave u How ? Restart Or remain Which will u choose ? Life is always miserable Life is always a myth U never knew the best path were actually does not suite u U never knew u actually had the best in ur life How u calculate How u define How to do a conclusion -

silence

有时候
真的很想把自己孤立起来
不想与任何人相处与沟通
讨厌复杂的情绪
讨厌复杂的感觉
讨厌复杂的猜思

只与自己沟通
那该多好
宁愿寂寞
也不愿与人交流

简单的
坦白的

很难吗 ？

sometimes i just don't get it

seriously, how do i respect someone that is superior than me

when he is not respecting others

and so rude in the public

humiliating own kind

doesn't it make you feel bad or heartache

so many years

i've seen it and feel it

i still couldn't get used of it

i only can persuade myself

"accept"

can i just ignore and don't bother

don't drag me in can ?

give me my little heaven

little peace

Oscar

残余的爱

剩下的余温

粉碎的记忆

破碎的情感

这样的一份感情，

不能要

要不得

已经

不完整

已经

不是当初

已经

不是初衷

making a story that is not true

and making you to believe

is really a hard task for me to do so

but is alright

i'm best oscar queen ever

at least the moment

you hate me

that is the result i want

which we both can move on

past tense

saw the photos

and the scene remind me of past

in the past

i always piggy back on his broad and strong body

and in the present now

the person now is not me anymore

i felt the sourish

but in the mean time

i felt sweet

as in...

i saw his smile

at least he is happy

complicated feeling in me now

nvm~~~

fall in love with this song again

"i love you like a love song"

it cheers me at least ~~~~

以前

曾经

已是往事

残留的

只有回忆

现在

未来

我期待

:)

haih !

sigh

accidentally got drag into a little bit complicated situation

and i shall pull a stop on it

before it goes worst

hmm...

dislike this situation

why it is always so complicated to me

i'm should be the causes....

responsibilities lies on me....

i shall face the wall and think deeply

Selena Gomez & The Scene - Love You Like A Love Song

currently in love with this song...

cause...it reminds me of some scene

romantic yet like a bubble bubbling...

~short life~

that moment is kinda special

been long did not involve in that kind of life

and i felt young again

just like in uni life...

and i realize, the evil in my heart

starting to wake up

its been slept for one and half year

and is not gone yet, just hibernate

oh god ! i need my angel to control my devil

if not...i really how far it will bring me gone to

*pray hard

is a sin but i like it...

shit !!!

hilarious

sarcastic

or really just a simple care ?

well...

can't you just be little honest and straight forward to me ?

or you just wanna pretend to be a good person as you always want to present to others ?

or my message is not clear to you at the last call ???

if your concern is just to make yourself feel better...

then how bout me ???

have you ever know....

your simple weird simple message can actually still affect my entire mood ???

do you know i still care...?

i really wonder...

what are you thinking right now....

can you just be honest to your heart and tell me the truth ???

i'm tired of guessing and thinking...

if really really your concern towards me is just to make yourself feel better...

please save it up....cause it make me feel worst...

or you really want to be friend ... please stop it !

cause it is impossible...

don't let me hate you....

don't let me hate you...

don't let me hate you...

i don't want to~~~~~

原来

到现在

我家人

还想我做白领阶级

而不是

我的梦想

我的心

很痛

为什么

就不能

支持我的梦想

我累了

精神上

快疯了

I NEED A FUCKING GET AWAY FROM HERE !!!

~smoke~

FailuRe

till now
my heart still weak
my emotion still not stable

till now
I still thinking of him
I still feel his aroma around me

till now
I still feel pain when I wake up every morning

it's just like a big bang knock on head telling me
'YEs! the truth that he leave'
'YEs! you no longer can linger on him anymore'
'YEs! you have lost him'

I'm such a failure
that I could not overcome it
that I could not control my emotion
that I still can't let go myself

damm that my hand tremble again
please, peiling! don't fear of losing him
please stop tremble anymore...
your hand now is the most important asset in life





那天，与朋友谈到
情侣分手后还能做朋友吗
以前的我想不到答案
现在的我有答案了
-很难-
不是不可以
是很难
如果彼此的感情曾经很深
那要做回朋友很难
因为，情感很容易错乱
会理不清
真的很难
不是不要
不是不行
是真的很难

[Posted with iBlogger from my iPhone]

南柯一梦

南柯一梦属黄梁

堪叹人生不长久

有生有死皆有命

无贫无福亦无常

魂飞魄散归何处

性朗心空望故乡

渐对虚空伸召请

领沾经咒往西方

华人七月又到啦

是孝恩报亲节

就是，报答我们的祖先

我们已故的亲人

而不是什么鬼节啦

搞得恐怖兮兮的

平日不做亏心事

不怕夜里鬼敲门

但是

还是少出夜街

多多在家休息休息

为了更美好的明天

更美好的健康

英文8月咯

大家加油加油

新月份，新开始

心绪还是很乱

因为错过了一次机会

所以

怕了再次错过

没关系

再撑多几个月

就会没事了

有没有机会都算了

没关系了

true heart

busy life making me no time to think that much

till i almost forgot that is already one month

surprisingly~

this is a good sign

and i hope it continued to be like that

cause my life worth a better day everyday

hope you don't contact me anymore

serious shit not now

for me,

it couldn't be ready to be a friend of yours after what we have been through

time is needed for me to adjust the new status of us

and sometimes your action really makes me wonder

you really can treat me as a friend now ?

or you just pretend you can just like you always do ?

hmmmm no one knows, only yourself do...

如果你的关心

只是想让自己好过一点

那请你收回去吧

我需要的是真心对待

如此的关心

很虚伪

不要破坏了

我一直以来对你的感觉