句点

finally done the last things

everything is REALLY pull to an end

this time is REALLY an end d...

fiu ~~~

never thought that making you hating me is so easy

never thought that making you mad at me is so easy

good...

like that you only can set my soul free

cause i don't feel your love and misses anymore

then i can proudly walked off by saying

'this one, is not my destiny...cause his heart had no space for me'

i'm a stubborn woman ever

as long as i felt a slightly emotion of feeling of yours on me,

i will hold tight

so, making you hate me

and not keeping a slight of feeling

only i can completely let myself free

without regret

i'm now without regret saying that

"i'm leaving you"

burn all the memories

let the wind took the ashes

we leave the memories to sky

and only sky knew

once, there are a couple

so in love

so heartbreak

and lastly

they walked the opposite way

to find their

own destiny

面子

给我来说

只是个皮囊

我可以撕破脸皮

搞得难堪

如果

这个方法

可以得到我要得结果

我无所谓

i dun mind the process

result is my only concern

Oscar

残余的爱

剩下的余温

粉碎的记忆

破碎的情感

这样的一份感情，

不能要

要不得

已经

不完整

已经

不是当初

已经

不是初衷

making a story that is not true

and making you to believe

is really a hard task for me to do so

but is alright

i'm best oscar queen ever

at least the moment

you hate me

that is the result i want

which we both can move on

the last

再一次的

我

用狠毒的语言

伤害了

我的爱

因为

只有这样

他

会彻底，彻底

放下我

放下一切

不再欺骗自己

真诚的

往前走

这是

我最后

最后

能为你做的

this will be the last

i tear for you

my heart will close

my feeling will fade

everything

i left with the dust

張惠妹 - 還有眼淚就好 MV

is alright

as long as you still can shed a tear

means u tried before

means u loved before

means u hurt before

be strong and do not afraid to escape and runaway

support support o ~~~~

emo

being whole day staying at home resting

is not a good thing for me

the day without activities

the day without hassles

i think alot

i think bout my past

i think bout my present

i think bout my future

i'm afraid

i'm confused somehow

i can't see my future clearly

my mind is blank of it

i can't sense my present now

i don't know am i passing my day meaningfully or not

i can't let go my past so easily as i thought

i still remember every scene and every feeling of it

it still can give me a slight ache on the chest

i'm very tired today

but couldn't get a very well rest

as the brain keep spinning around the past present and future

how good

if i can just shut down

i hate miserable feelings

i hate miserable things

离开

有一天谈到这个话题

让我，深思了一下

如果有一天

突然的离去

我的葬礼

我希望是白色与紫色 色调

浪漫的

温柔的

气息

我的葬礼

要我很多很多

蒲公英

不里

我就是要

因为

它，象征自由，坚强

我的葬礼

要播着我喜爱的歌

carpenters - close to you

adele - one and only

air supply - making love out of nothing at all

eric clapton - wonderful tonight

还有很多，还没想到

我的葬礼

我允许我的亲爱们哭

你们就哭吧

可是不要太久哦

可以的话，聊聊我们以前做过的傻事

回忆我

怀念我

不要把我忘了

我害怕

被遗忘的感觉

真的，很怕

我的葬礼

我要我的亲爱们

穿的花枝招展， 化妆

要美美的

就像我们一起出街时那么的吸引

因为，最后的旅程

我都要美美的

而我

我要穿白色的连身裙， 长长的

如果，不幸的脸死得很丑

请盖上白布在我脸

不想到最后

让你们看到丑丑的我

我接收不到咯

我的葬礼

我要我的遗照

是笑的够力够力灿烂

如果我有拍到这样的照片的话

past tense

saw the photos

and the scene remind me of past

in the past

i always piggy back on his broad and strong body

and in the present now

the person now is not me anymore

i felt the sourish

but in the mean time

i felt sweet

as in...

i saw his smile

at least he is happy

complicated feeling in me now

nvm~~~

fall in love with this song again

"i love you like a love song"

it cheers me at least ~~~~

以前

曾经

已是往事

残留的

只有回忆

现在

未来

我期待

:)

Air Supply - Making Love Out Of Nothing At All (HQ Audio)(SOLID GOLD)

making love out of nothing at all ~~~

can a couple purely understand the meaning inside it ?

do you know the creation of making love ?

do you know why god created that way

this is the way when

we feel each other

so close

so near

just like two in one

without -you-

without -me-

is a -we-

is the way we feel intimacy

not for pleasure

yet not for leisure as well

is the purely way to feel each other

so deeply

that's call making love

and yet

couple nowadays

is called making sex

where do the love gone to ?

haih !

sigh

accidentally got drag into a little bit complicated situation

and i shall pull a stop on it

before it goes worst

hmm...

dislike this situation

why it is always so complicated to me

i'm should be the causes....

responsibilities lies on me....

i shall face the wall and think deeply

Selena Gomez & The Scene - Love You Like A Love Song

currently in love with this song...

cause...it reminds me of some scene

romantic yet like a bubble bubbling...

~short life~

that moment is kinda special

been long did not involve in that kind of life

and i felt young again

just like in uni life...

and i realize, the evil in my heart

starting to wake up

its been slept for one and half year

and is not gone yet, just hibernate

oh god ! i need my angel to control my devil

if not...i really how far it will bring me gone to

*pray hard

is a sin but i like it...

shit !!!

denial stage

再堕落

再犯贱

的日子

虽然很轻松

但

该是时候

醒醒了

疯也疯过了

颠也颠过了

犯贱也犯贱过了

是时候

把身分拉高了

come on

let me be a baby girl

at least for few moment

am too tired to be so rationally thinking

let me

let me

just let my emotion take over

do what ever i feel like doing

without thinking the consequences

without thinking the value

without thinking the worthy

just be irresponsible for at least now

i'm emotionally very tired

默读伤悲-林忆莲

给我一点时间

默读自己的伤悲

让自己清醒

让自己看清

不被自己相信所相信的

被蒙蔽

忘了真相

句号

那天你的突如其来，

就好像把我给催眠了

一个礼拜过了

我也该醒了

再一次的

你，abuse my trust to you, abuse my confident to you, abuse my love to you

三次

的给你机会

三次

的你无视它

那你别埋怨我，把一切责任堆积于我身上

为何放弃你

为何放开手

为何不信你

我，等你成熟

等得好累

我要休息

你不给我句号

没关系

就让我帮你画上吧

你没有的勇气

我帮你做

loving you is never tired

if you lend a hand for me

and together we fight for future

but now,

loving you is very tired and tortured for my heart

cause you keep your hand away from me

i can't hold any longer just keep hoping to see you show your hand to me

if helping you to get awake is a mistake

then i shall let you fall now

if fall that only can awake you

entire 3 months plus

you keep repeating the same mistake

you never learn from past

if this time you did not learn

i don't know how your future will be

you always said "past didn't represent future"

but for me, "your past determine your future"

do you understand what i mean ?

i can't worry you much anymore

cause i have my life to go own

i only sacrifice for the person that willing to fight future with me

i'm not strong

i'm not tough

i cry everyday and night

but sooner or later

i'll find back the smile in my face

not the fake one

but the sincere smile ever come deeply from my heart

:)