sensitive moment

maybe wad am doing now is not wad i had plan earlier
the process or the track i'm going is totally apart from what i want earlier

i had always asked
ask myself whether it is right

how if it is wrong

will be wrong

or it is destiny to be that way

i had no idea

but just follow what my intuition is

seriously,

after so many many things that happened
i don't really bother bout the process anymore

i am well aware of the result

the result that will brings me a better life and lesser problems

i'm sickening of troubles
i'm sickening of things around me that can cause me sleepless night

don't questioned me anything
just support will do
cause things never turn in what you want
but it teaches me how to trade from one to another to get the end result

last time
process meant alots to me
but now
result means more to me

if what i'm doing now can please my family
i'll do
i'm tired to walk against their way

-not any negative thought-
-is just a sentimental thought-
-is just a sigh-
-is just a symbol of getting older-
-think in other way round, is actually not a bad thing-

friendz

this is the friendship

this is the bond

this is us

just us

life never waits

and time never stop

everything change

but the emotion and feeling

never change

this is what that brings us together

and support each other till now

awwww love u guys...

next trip is planning~~~

a tips...

somewhere cold~~~

noises

having a fucking weird dream few days ago
have forgotten the scene
but i remember the noises in there

is really fucking annoying noise
there lots lots lots of people
i assume
buzzing there
keep talking and talking and talking

is so ~~~ noisy
till i'm awake from the dream in the morning
and got a substance headache

my friend said is a symptoms
symptoms of i had too may things to concern
too many things left undone

and that's why it bothering me till
i got this fucking weird dream

and the whole day
i felt the surround
is so annoying and noisy

i wan an inner peace...

i shall chao and go to cafe to get a peace there with cup of coffee~~~

sexual maniac

just realize i'm part of the SM
i'm the M part
as according to my sis...lolxxxx

well some incident happened yesterday,
tho is kinda sad but deeply in heart i'm feeling satisfied and happy...

oh well oh well
i'm not going to describe it clearly...
cause is a granma story
but...the SM i'm talking here is not the sex part of SM

hehehehe
i'm a space of imagination for u guys here...
tata~~~today is lovely morning saturday with period pain WTF !!!

黑风洞

其实
内心还是黑暗无比
空洞从未变小
然而应该也没再深下去

懊恼
为何那么胆小

懊恼
为何那么胆却

懊恼
为何那么在意

表面看是平静
那是因为
伪装的伎俩
更甚一筹了
装的，连自己也被糊弄了

只能靠些
风花雪月
蒙混的
情感
掩饰内心的颤抖

借酒消愁

愁更愁

看着烟云

度虚年

drunk

after so long

it can't be deny that the heart is lock

cause of u

when the most fragile time

it is even prove that the heart never leave u alone

anyhow

the decision make in the last is the most desirable decision ever

wishing the best of the best for u

~ never regret of the decision make ~

无形

的

言辞

无形

的

心情

从未变过

依然强烈

保重

the voice

just hold on tight on what you believe

process is not a big matter after all

but the ending the result is the most of the concern

what you want

what you hope

that's the most vitality thought

principle is just a guideline to lead you to your path

is not a rules or padlock that block you away from getting your dream comes true

i'm doing what that gets me to my dream

unplanned process will lead me to a better memory and experience

so i won't mind what process i will encounter

cause

unexpected thing always surprise me